“Every once in a while, I try to disappear from this cold reality. I sit in a dark corner and try to be alone; to be invisible; to be forgotten. But no matter how far away from the world I may be, no matter how invisible I am to everyone else, he can still see me. He stares at me. He laughs at me. He taunts me. He screams at me. He tells me that my life is not worth living unless I do what he says. He is going to hurt me. He wants me to die.
“And I though I may run and run and run until my feet are scabbed and bloody, though I may drive and drive and drive until the tires wear down to the rims and the engine belches smoke, though I may climb into a shuttle and launch myself into the outmost reaches of deepest space, I can never escape him. All I can do is to cram myself into a corner and pray for him to be gone. All I can do is to scream until his voice is drowned out. All I can do is to cry until no tears are left in me. He is always there. And I am never alone.”
---Gideon V. You'd be sad too if you had a mean imaginary friend.
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Mixed media. April 2011.
This is one of my favorite illustrations I've done of Gideon and Gabriel so far.
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All the emotion in it is astounding. I think the reason I like it so much is because I'm pretty sure all of us have felt this way at one time or another.
After staring for a while at the drawing, I decided to read those two paragraphs from Gideon in the description, and those paragraphs really just struck me. I don't really have the right words to describe how the drawing and writing make me feel. They're both just so powerful.
You did an amazing job!
This is definitely one of my most emotional pieces. I was a very angsty child when I was in high school, and to me, this piece is the culmination of all of the negative feelings that went through my mind back then. I think I drew it right before I graduated.
Thank you again! Drawing and writing are my two favorite things, so I'm really glad you enjoy it!
I can understand this coming from high school feelings and experiences. I'm only in my second year of high school, and I think I've had my fair share of said experiences. But then again, that's school... actually, that's just life. Sure, there are good times, but there will always be dark stages. Wow, that sounded really... horrible. Anyway, my point in all this is that I like this drawing because it's realistic XD
You're very welcome again!
beyond the valley of the dead
a place where gentle spirits dwell
a place that sends him back to hell.
I know a stairway through the stars
beyond the influence of Mars
a place where only angels play
I often go there when I pray.
Come rest beneath an angels wing
come join the chorus that we sing
I know a man who has the key
to set the helpless captive free
He'll lead you to the promised land
you'll know Him by His nail pierced hand.